Dirty Work

Tonight, I stayed up revamping this, my fanlisting for Molly from Buffy the Vampire Slayer. Georgina and I are doing a fanlisting revamp marathon this week, and I’m already a day behind, so I really wanted to knock that one out. It’s too bad it took so long, because now it’s almost 3am and I’m still awake.

It wouldn’t be such a big deal if I didn’t have work in the morning. This summer, I’m working full-time for my university, which means, yes, I’ve got that dreaded nine-to-five. A girl’s gotta eat, though, so it’s a necessary evil.

It’s kind of depressing to think about how much of my money goes into necessities like food and rent. Don’t get me wrong, I haven’t had trouble paying my bills (yet), but I wish I had more money left over to spend on frivolous things–concerts and the like.

My problem isn’t so much that I don’t have money for the things I want, but that I don’t have money for all the things I want. For example, I decided to go on a week-long trip to Los Angeles in August, which means I can’t afford the new tattoo I’ve been wanting, and this gorgeous 25th anniversary edition boxed set of Megadeth’s “Peace Sells… But Who’s Buying?” is definitely out of the question. (Before you get all preachy, yes I know this is a perfect example of opportunity cost.)

I keep thinking how easy it would be to just drop out of school, get a new job (I wouldn’t be able to keep mine because it’s a student position), and continue to put myself through voice lessons until I feel ready to take the next step in pursuing my music career. I mean, I’m sustaining myself now without school, right? I’m in my own apartment and paying for everything myself. It would be so easy. And so much easier to afford voice lessons, wow (because during school I’m only allowed to work 15 hours a week).

Right now, I’m in school working on a degree that will make my mom happy. She wants me to finish university so I will have something to fall back on if music doesn’t work out. Me, I just want to dive into it. Having nothing to turn to would lead me to work even harder to succeed.

In all likelihood, I will stay in school. I will finish my degree in God knows what, and then I will start my band, work hard, and ideally never have to use my uni education again, except the music stuff, of course. But if opportunity comes knocking, I’m not going to tell it to wait at the door.

8 thoughts on “Dirty Work

  1. Haha that’s okay man, you can do a quick one tomorrow. :3 I am going to do one today… mah! And Molly looks heaps better than before. You know, doing this has clearly brought to my attention the amount of fanlistings I have… If I can get rid of another 10, I think I may collapse. ANYWAY. Enough of that.

    Of course we have to eat! I was starving yesterday while I was printing my photography pieces but I really wanted to get one part done before I headed off for lunch. At least you can eat and work. Food isn’t allowed in the photo labs. πŸ™

    Opportunities are good. Except, sometimes, work isn’t always desirable. I don’t know for how long I hated my job… but I like it now because I realise that earning money is pretty important for the future. I would trade with you really! Anyway, get your ass over here so you can explore the world down under. There will hopefully be opportunities here that you will be more keen on. πŸ˜€

  2. Good job on the fanlisting design, I really like it! I heard from Georgiana about it, what an awesome idea.

    Working sucks, haha, I’m dreading the day I’ll have to get a job to help pay my tuition and other school expenses soon. It’s a good thing you have enough money too, where I live, a lot of people hardly are able to scrape by each month, it’s so sad and I’ve always wanted to get a good job so I can donate a lot of my earnings someday, haha.

    I would not drop out of school, it’s easy to say you’ll start a music career, but talent isn’t enough today, look at the “talent” the world is buying up, no substance, it’s sad. You always need a back up plan, right? You should listen to your mum, they always know what to do, at least mine does.

    I hope you can accomplish being a professional musician, it’d be nice to hear something good on the radio for a change! Haha.

  3. I, personally, would try to tough out school or at least go for a degree that could be finished in two or three years instead of four. But I’ve never been much of a risk taker. I like the idea of having something to fall back on, even if I plan to pursue one of my greatest passions. I’m still a year away from college, but I am planning to do something along those lines. I’m okay with going through years more of agony before doing what I truly love. My desire for comfort overrides my desire to do what I love, I suppose.

    But if that’s what you truly believe is the right decision, go for it. There’s no point in being unhappy when you know you could easily be happy.

    I wish you the best of luck with whatever path you choose to take. πŸ™‚

  4. “If opportunity comes knocking, I’m not going to tell it to wait at the door.” TouchΓ©! We may have plans for our future but sometimes, somewhere along the way, we encounter something that is not part of the plan but will make our lives better and is worth taking the risk. So yeah. Take chances! πŸ™‚

  5. I love fanlistings, but I don’t join them or make them because I forget about them. I once ran the Growing Pains fanlisting and lost internet connection so I had to give it up >< Which sucked, cause that was one I loved to bits. But it's cool that you're able to keep up with them. How many do you own?

    Ugh I have 9-5 as well, but the late night hours. Work saps me, but like you said it's good money. I still live at home right now (my choice, I want to save up till I can take care of myself) so I don't have the issue of bills to worry about, but it sounds like you're doing really well.

    School is something I'd like to do one day. I need to get my GED first though, and once I do that then attend a few college courses. I'd like to do something for writing and or music myself. Ooh Peace Sells, good album. I had to deny myself a few things last month because I bought stuff for other people. It kinda sucked but made me feel good overall when they liked their gifts, lol.

    Hope you can manage to save up for some fun things soon.

    1. I own 20 fanlistings right now, and I have three upcoming. It gets a little much sometimes when deadlines for upcoming fanlistings are approaching, but mostly I just love it. πŸ™‚

      Why didn’t you finish high school? =/ Good luck getting your GED! And what kind of job do you have? I feel like working a night shift would be so much better for me. πŸ˜› Do you sleep all day then?

  6. I’ve never really gotten into fanlistings, but they seem like fun! :p

    I guess not being able to have everything that you want teaches you discipline! You have to choose whichever things are most important to you at the moment and wait on the others :’) Then again, I know how annoying it is. I’m currently without a job and have never have a job, so I always rely on my parents for money DX I really need to get a job! paha

    I think you should stay in school and at least get some sort of degree! Even though you really want to do music, it’ll be good to have that little safety net πŸ™‚ I would still pursue music, too, of course!! You need to do whatever makes you happy, just not at the expense of maybe being UNhappy later on in life :3

  7. Good luck on revamping all of those fanlisting! I know how hard it is to revamp /one/ site, but more than one is a lot different. Then again, mine doesn’t have a lot of crap on it either way, so I imagine it being a lot harder than doing any of my sites. Good luck!

    I think it’s really good that you decided to stay in school, but I also like that your deciding to stay with music as a future career! You actually remind me a lot of my cousin. Her mom wants her to become a major in psychology, yet she wants to become a manga/anime artist for comics and video games and such. The best thing I can really say in any of these situations is follow your dreams!! I’m sure you’ll find the perfect music path soon~!

    Hopefully I won’t get overwhelmed~ ^_^ I’ve always been good at working with people, especially under pressure, but this may be pushing it. I have no idea! D:

    And don’t worry. This is a pretty shitty comment as well. D: Note to self: less sleep = less brain. x-x

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