Tonight, I stayed up revamping this, my fanlisting for Molly from Buffy the Vampire Slayer. Georgina and I are doing a fanlisting revamp marathon this week, and I’m already a day behind, so I really wanted to knock that one out. It’s too bad it took so long, because now it’s almost 3am and I’m still awake.

It wouldn’t be such a big deal if I didn’t have work in the morning. This summer, I’m working full-time for my university, which means, yes, I’ve got that dreaded nine-to-five. A girl’s gotta eat, though, so it’s a necessary evil.

It’s kind of depressing to think about how much of my money goes into necessities like food and rent. Don’t get me wrong, I haven’t had trouble paying my bills (yet), but I wish I had more money left over to spend on frivolous things–concerts and the like.

My problem isn’t so much that I don’t have money for the things I want, but that I don’t have money for all the things I want. For example, I decided to go on a week-long trip to Los Angeles in August, which means I can’t afford the new tattoo I’ve been wanting, and this gorgeous 25th anniversary edition boxed set of Megadeth’s “Peace Sells… But Who’s Buying?” is definitely out of the question. (Before you get all preachy, yes I know this is a perfect example of opportunity cost.)

I keep thinking how easy it would be to just drop out of school, get a new job (I wouldn’t be able to keep mine because it’s a student position), and continue to put myself through voice lessons until I feel ready to take the next step in pursuing my music career. I mean, I’m sustaining myself now without school, right? I’m in my own apartment and paying for everything myself. It would be so easy. And so much easier to afford voice lessons, wow (because during school I’m only allowed to work 15 hours a week).

Right now, I’m in school working on a degree that will make my mom happy. She wants me to finish university so I will have something to fall back on if music doesn’t work out. Me, I just want to dive into it. Having nothing to turn to would lead me to work even harder to succeed.

In all likelihood, I will stay in school. I will finish my degree in God knows what, and then I will start my band, work hard, and ideally never have to use my uni education again, except the music stuff, of course. But if opportunity comes knocking, I’m not going to tell it to wait at the door.